Basketball. My passion.

dis few day been feeling moody..........
tdy tears drop twice for my thinking ba....but just feel so sad and my tear can't be hold back.......
dis few day really understand a lot of thing ba......wat i get nw is all because of wat i do ba.....i deserve it...i deserve to be sad i deserve to feel so hurt....
dis few day really i c a lot and understand a lot...its really like i'm anyhow thinking......actually i really find dis world unfair......
but is dis world really unfair i dun really noe ba......
tdy actually dun plan to go cs de.....but den teacher saw us and ask lionel to go.....i was feeling damn sian and unhappy ba.......den i feel so weird..i choose to go b to cs.....and they went to hein house...i been thinking and thinking.......
and den finally my tears drop when i went out.......i hit de wall once......and de pain mark remain there till nw....
when de punch falls i dun fall anyhting i feel i didn't hit hard enough for me to feel pain but when a few hours past my bone aches....
i really think i deserve all dis but why i can't take it...maybe i should just take it ba....and like dis i'll feel better.......but i just can't give her up......
maybe for all these to happen let me realise tat i really love her a lot..i dunno hw important is she tat i'm so afriad to lost her...and dis feeling is driving me crazy..
can onli say wo zhen de hao ai ni
it has been so long since i didn't send her home le or should say we r alone ba...we oso didn't chat for so long........
tdy i get de chance to send her home..actually its just a short distance but i wanted to send her furture......but still it seems so short...we reach just like me blinking m eye once..
and its time to say goodbye......everytime i watched her walk away.......de feeling i get was always so sad....always feel like tmr wun be like dis..i dun wish to end ..
but still always goodbye comes so fast......
tdy saw her hand gt a plaster i was so shock......i was so worry?....tat's just a small wound?......but i was so worried...and i over worry and over concern?....
i really change le ma?.....i really change le ma....
i really wondering........
am i like dis or am i nt.....
if dis is me i really hate myself
everytime i compair myself with him i dun find any good pts of myself...wat i gt?..wat i deserve to let her love me?....i gt nth.......
i even lost hope in myself........
am i being selfish...i really dun bear to let her go...i really like her
why can't we be tgt.......all my fault ba........
haiz......wat can i do...i really dunno...i onli wish we could be tgt..
when u r beside me i feel so happy..de feeling is so hard to describ...
haiz...........
bye