Here to update again.....
dis few day been having bad temper dunno wat is wrong with me...
it seems like i can't laugh happily like i used to be...all my laugh are fake la?no i didn't fake dem...
but why i can't feel de happiness inside me..
wat is happening to me....haix..
anw i been noticing tat i been scolding bad word inside myself(means nt saying out).....for every single thing tat i dun like or plans that didn't go as i wanted.
i been throwing temper at my friends.....faces that i never been angry for 4 year?nw i start to be angry with dem so easily.......
what cause de fire inside me..why do i get so frustrated so easily....
why is it that every single word that come out from my mouth nw doesnt sound good..
why does everything that i say and write is making fun of other or looking down of others...
Why am i nt like before....encourging others....
i'm nt like before too trying very hard to do things dat i interested..
nw i just do it with my mouth and no action...
haix..wats happening..life seem boring to me....and so many bad things r happening in de world...
i wanted to make my life more meaning...nt wasting dis life of mine...
when will i be motivated..who will be able to movitate me...
her?
Anw i tdy saw something that gt my interest...
i was reading wat type of character will i have for my birth date and i saw dis..
it says tat my 9 represent me..
and 9 was very power...for example 1+9=10 and 1+0=1 by using any digit adding 9 and using de 2 different digit from de answer u'll get b de first digit..my first reaction was trying it with others number..suspose urs too:) and 4x9=36,3+6=9..dis is another... but using any number to x 9 and de 2 different digit of de answer add tgt u'll get 9..
nw i shall say abt dis thursday ba...didn't noe why i felt so bored dis day...
so i was like thinking of things to entertain myself...and i thought of going through blogs.. as i hasn't been looking at others blog for a long time while my class classmates r trying to modify their cars for a race...
i left it to my team....i was like oh..pretty entertain after looking at a few blog and den i came to dis person de blog which makes me emo and was feeling like crying....
first i saw her name..my heart beats increase...and i saw tat sentance and i started to emo....
and i was thinking of dis..i didn't think of her...and why why when i saw her name my hearts..and when i saw tat sentance i was so.....haix
i was thinking maybe i just keep her deep inside my heart...and because of tat i dun miss her so much but when i saw de name......haix...
i was seriously thinking whether i should forget her....she came to c my blog before...didn't noe whether she will come to my blog again or nt.....
was also wondering whether she will block my msn again or nt which i created a new 1 to add her..but tat doesn't matter..i dun even dare to login tat acc to c whether he's online..
nt like before.....look at friendster to check whether there's a 24hour under her name and if there is i will login to msn to look for her..and i'm lucky mostly she was there:)
it's been a few month since we last meet le ba and we last chat....u changed ur hairstyle and i haven't gt de chance to c u...
De most sad thing to me is nt tat u rejected me twice but is tat period of time....
tat period of time i spend with u.....
and nw tat period of time can onli be memories to me..onli memories or even like dreams which will never happen...de dream i been waiting for seems like it will nt come true.....
Really like to ask u dis question....de time we had for tat period of time...r u happy....i'm very happy and i almost totally lost myself...to me nt being able to c ur smile is sth unnatural...is sth terrible...to me can hear u laughing is de greaters thing for de day...but i started to change....
why i always take advantage....when i keep having de chance to talk to u why i forget hw hard i tried to talk 2 u in de past....
and i started to be daring to ignore u......had i forget those day tat u ignored me......
my reason was i'm jealous...totally jealous..but wat rites do i have......i always told myself tat...haha....that period of time really make me get so much closer to u so much so much..can say from stranger to close friend.......and after tat period we r worse than strange?haix..
shall stop writting dis post is long enough and if i continue there will be no end..as theres so much thing to say to her but why i'm always have nth to say infront of her....
nites....

Yesterday went gym in de morning,
was in de gym for quite a long period of time..2 hour 30min...was in de gym longer and longer.
haha after that...same as usual we went to pionner mall to eat...haix...abit sian of there le...haha...everytime go eat....eating there more often than at my house le..
den after that i went home to take bball and my friend went to jp to shop.
Den in de afternoon we jiu play bball le.....
haha
Can say that we all gt no str to play bball le.....haha.....
haha..all shoot airball........
Den we play with others....haix...lost so badly tat day....
den after that ....they shoot shoot then got people play full court.....
den dunno where my ball liao...they shoot le dunno put where....in de end ...
my ball cannot be found le...haha....
nw still having muscleache...haix
sian...........haix..........

it's 5am nw..haha...
still haven't sleep.....
tdy's friday..and so i'll meet hui li..lol...prepare myself for bored time....
haha......bring psp and labtop to play......in de end quite boring ba...meet with yan hong sara hui li lin qing...and i felt so sleepy...
jian qing go find gf jiu ps me le...haha
den mt wanted to take things from me but i at sch..ps le lor.....
reached home at abt 6plus..den straight away went to sleep...
Den sleep unitl 11plus...my mother dou come b le...
i xiadao..lol....den jiu eat dinner...
nth much lor..ait for my sis to finish using my labtop..
den almost fall asleep...
after tat i use labtop until nw or...yawn..
nth much to talk abt.........
should i be happy in order to be happy or so i nt be happy in order to be happy..
wat am i feeling inside me...
wat am i thinking..........
wats tat unknown feeling......
3rd week le......
hw long have i nt seem u....
nitex

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My name is: Wang Cheng,born at china27nov1990
likes to play basketball and chi-chat around and playing computer games.
Currently studying in ngee ann polytechines under school of enginnering(Electronic&Computer Enginnering)

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