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tdy was another miserable day?...
yaeh feel rather sad........
feel betrey? no nt anymore.....when i first find out i really felt betray.....
really sad....i trusted u instead of her and de result is like dis...
am i trusting u thing tat i nt suspose to trust and doubt u for things i should't have doubt?........
really dunno....gave u my trust.........but wat i c really hurt me....wat i hear from u........
tdy thz to jonathan for speaking to me...i feel refresh i gt de feeling b..i'm me again..but its just for a while a short for?...de recess?
and whe n isaw de messages i;m totally hurt...betray....betrayed....haha...
sound so wat....but i really am....
tdy they went to de same place...
i dunno wat there have?...is it really so great ....haiz....maybe ba....
am i really wrong to go after wat i want?
i really dun wish to think like dis..but wats making me think like dis...i'm nt unreasonable....i believe i am....
but why did i appear to be....i really dunno wat u do...i really dun...
i just wanted to noe...but it always makes me unreasonable...maybe i care too much?.....isn't it...why do i care so much.....
why???
haiz...
i didn't object them to be tgt...i'm happy for dem...but i'm sad for myself....i really can't do it......just by cing ur so happy?i'll just feel happy like dis...i really can't....i'm gald u r happy?.....but i really can't be happy for myself?....
why r u hiding it from me...why can't u just tell me...yeah i'm sad...but its better than to have u been sad...........wats my sad for?.......
why do u have to sacrific urself?...i dun need tat...it hurts me more to c u being sad.....but why i just can't let u go...
i noe its better to let go but why can't i....i really can't i really..am i so deep in love?.....
theres too much thing i dunno....i hope i could noe everything.......
yeah i did i found out things dats is being hidden from me again....
i really feel so sad...but i'm gald i noe the truth...its better for u to be happy ba...
nw maybe i could just leave u...u dun need my care anymore..u dun need me as ur friend....u dun need some1 tat makes u angry....i nt de old me...tat me is dead......its better ba..i'll feel better to c u happy 2.......
dunno whether u have been reading ma...i doubt so...
my hearts been giving dis feeling..i hate dis feeling..i hope i could just dig it out.....stop it....
i plan to write out our story and it include my thinking for eveything u do every moment......
but nws o....do i have de time...
i onli can think of dis way to let u noe hw i really feel........why am i doing dis...
i can't blame u ba...its me who get dis starting....
haiz
no rites to blame u...its better to blame myself ba...ah remember something i just told some1 2 nite ago? its feel better to blame other than urself.....
but i choose de harder way?....
why can't i just hate u and give up on u..consider de things that u have done...why can't i give up on u...why do i still have feelings for u...
why does it seem to be tat i'm bothering u nw...
wat r we nw.....wat r we in de past......if i can choose again i wun regret to fall for u again...
but i'll change hw i love u wat should i do wat i shouldn't in order nt to hurt u....
why u can't undertsnad my heart...my mouth can't express my heart.....
i'm nt good with it......................SRy